Ten years ago today, I launched this blog to explore the depths of living at risk for Huntington’s disease and to unburden myself of the fear of its inevitable symptoms.
Frankly, I did not expect to still be writing at 55.
At that age, my mother had developed chorea (the involuntary movements associated with HD) and was experiencing serious emotional and cognitive symptoms that would soon prevent her from speaking and caring for herself. This year marks the sad 20th anniversary of her official diagnosis. She died of HD in February 2006 at the age of 68.
I tested positive for the HD genetic mutation in 1999.
I strongly believe that my work on this blog – research, reflection, writing, advocacy, and networking – has helped me delay my own HD onset.
I cannot scientifically prove this, but evidence strongly suggests that mental stimuli and other forms of enrichment can positively affect the course of this disease and other neurodegenerative conditions.
Researchers have told me privately that they believe my mental activity has helped keep me stable. “Keep doing what you’re doing,” they say.
Launching the blog
Life can be an emotional roller coaster. HD families ride the tallest and most twisted one, with HD gene carriers like me facing a terrifying descent into symptoms.
Starting in 2001, I wrote and edited Conquest, the tri-annual newsletter of the San Diego Chapter of the Huntington’s Disease Society of America. However, while revealing the stories of many HD-affected individuals and their families in Conquest, I never wrote about my own family’s plight.
I started At Risk at the urging of Norman Oder, a fellow Yale University graduate and colleague at the Yale Daily News.
As a young journalist in the 1980s, Norman by chance wrote an article about a New York area HD family. After we reconnected years later, he edited some of my Conquest articles. Coincidentally one told the story of that same family, part of which had moved to California.
In the early 2000s Norman and I brainstormed about how to increase media coverage of HD, including my own story, as a way to strengthen the cause and attract potential donors.
With that goal in mind, I initiated the blog to address the many complex issues faced by presymptomatic mutation carriers like me as well as untested at-risk individuals.
I didn’t realize at the time how much it would help me sort out my thoughts, engage with others in the HD community, and nudge HD activism. In February 2011, I examined this blog as an advocacy tool during my keynote of the Sixth Annual HD Therapeutics Conference, sponsored by the CHDI Foundation, Inc. In June 2011 I was named HDSA’s Person of the Year, an honor I never could have achieved without this forum. “I know, too, that this award is not just for me,” I wrote, “but for everybody affected by HD: the at-risk, the gene-positive, the symptomatic, the families, and the unsung heroes of America, the caregivers.”
From the start, Norman has applied his editing skills to virtually every article, almost always sending back revisions within a few hours. He has also suggested a number of topics and pushed me
toward rigor when it’s tempting to just hope.
Norman is my “HD alter ego,” and a great friend.
(Later in 2005, Norman began his own long-running blog, a daily account of Brooklyn’s most controversial real-estate project, now called Atlantic Yards/Pacific Park Report.)
A stalwart supporter of my activism, my wife Regina has reflected with me on the content of numerous articles. Our daughter Bianca has witnessed me writing and posting articles. Now a teenager, she has a record she can consult of her grandmother’s demise and her father’s writing and coping strategies.
Explicitly and implicitly, Regina and Bianca permeate the pages of this blog. More than anything else, their presence and love motivate me to fight HD and to improve as a husband, father, and human being.
Source: At Risk for Huntington’s Disease